“You are my witnesses,” declares the LORD, “and my servant whom I have chosen, so that you may know and believe me and understand that I am he. Isaiah 43:10
Thank you all so much for the prayers, I have felt each one that has went up on my behalf! I am still feeling under the weather, but I know Satan would have me continue not to write if he had his way and I am not letting him get one up on me!
I wonder why it is hard to trust God with the things that happen in our individual lives. I can trust Him in the global catastrophies, the sinful world we live in, or someone else's troubles, so why is it so hard to trust Him with our own problems? I must propose it is because deep, deep down in the secret place of our heart, we really don't believe He cares about our individual struggles. We have the head knowledge of how much He loves and cares for us, but somehow it has not sunk into our heart.
This is when spending time in His Word, prayer, and fellowship with other believers becomes SO important. If we allow ourselves to give in to the desire Satan plants in our mind to think He doesn't have time or care for us, we can become isolated and be drawn into a web of fear and defeat. This is the time it becomes a matter of choosing to believe Him and to let the things we know to be true about His character to guide our thoughts and lead us to victory.
So, this has been my struggle this week. A tiredness I didn't even know existed came over me, my whole body ached, I was dizzy, and add a cold to the mix--I was done for. Most of these symptoms are still here. I have self-diagnosed myself (nurses love to do that) with the help of some labwork and the internet. My auto-immune disorder has revved up and Satan has been trying to use it to drag me under. But I am pressing on...I will not let him silence me. I will keep typing as long as my fingers are able.